Random Thoughts for the Day....

Feeling absolutely fine today…..and peppy……my appetite is back…..and am feeling really fresh…..

So not only did I get up early today….but also went for a work-out…….and here are a few random thoughts of the day………

1. Got up early and saw a some hot young Jain totties (Jainism : an Indian religion…..for those of you who don’t know)….trotting their way to the temple dressed in their transparent white robes…….

Don’t see much of them nowadays…….either the Jains are not made sexy enough or they are not religious enough to go to the temple…..

And why is it never raining when they are en route……making their transparent robes totally see-through and clinging to their bodies……

2. Sometimes when I see a really good-looking guy….why do I get so embarrassed about the way I look???…..does it happen to everyone or is it just me???.....and sometimes I also do feel that it is not fair that some guys look so good and others don’t……

3. Women cannot drive. Period.

4. In India….wrong people are always at the right places……and look what they have done to my country…..

5. Had gone to a shop where there were all these *blue-collared* workers…..merrily enjoying this children’s TV serial…about fairies and demons……do adults still harbour innocent fantasies????.....or they were watching it ‘coz they had nothing else to watch????

Ending all the randomized thinking for the day...if crappy....blame it on the post-illness delirium…..Ciao….

Chatting with Faceless people

I am pretty new to the world of chatting and it is only nowadays that I have been going online at gay.com……

Not that I have never chatted before….but very very seldom…..hence all the ignorance about the usual etiquettes required for a *gay chat pro*……( and if by chance I have chatted with any of you before and I end it saying that I am sleepy…..it’s becoz I am really sleepy and not that I dislike you…)

I am so ignorant about chatting that I don’t even know where all the Mumbai gays log on to for chatting…..(the only ones I know are gay.com and indiatimes.com)……..

And being still very much in the closet….I can be included in those numerous faceless profiles that you see…..so for all the guy who demand a pic and close the window immediately if a face pic is not available….I and the rest of the faceless people are not that ugly…..they just don’t want to be seen….

I am aware that these rooms are primarily for cruising…..and procuring sex is the only thing in mind for most of the guys......but is there any one who just wants to talk……or is just plain waste of time talking to a *Faceless Man*????

Driving with Dickheads.....

So now it really looks like the “Bombay Monsoons” have started…….a heavy downpour and a lot of traffic jams…..

My illness….(yes….I am still down with flu)…..prevented me from going to the numerous work places that I usually go to……

But while driving to the rest....I was very much a part of the abovementioned traffic jams…..and looking at the way most of the people drive in Mumbai….it makes you wonder……are you driving with all dickheads around you???

I would say the roads in and around my place are pretty good…..and the strip of highway that I encounter is 4 lanes on either side……

But then you have these people who just shove their vehicles….cars/ rickshaws/ bikes….in any empty space possible……causing this deadlock….and then it’s just an endless wait…..

But thinking of driving habits……I am no different……so is it driving with dickheads or driving like a dickhead????

Anyway…..with flu and the rest…..the only live weekly entertainment that I had…watching hot totty at the gym….is all gone….and with the present blandness……I have to solely rely on the television…..

But even *Gay Stuff* on television sucks……the last season of *Will and Grace* is anything but funny and bores me to death……(wish we had QAF....on Indian TV)

Thankfully…..we still have sports……World Cup (….Shevchenko……Kaka….drools…)….and now watching Bogdanovic kicking some sexy Nadal butt !!!

Bogdanovic


Nadal

How I miss *him*........

Don’t you really miss someone you had a crush on sometimes….even though you never really expressed it to him…….and you obviously did not have an affair with him…….

Today was work…work….and only work…..

So nothing interesting happened…..

And then I went to this popular restaurant……. all by myself…….sigh……

And then I suddenly remembered *him*…..he was the most good-looking guy I have met till now…(or that’s what I think)…..and ironically…...so many years have passed that I even his face is blurry to me now…….

We both were in med school…..I was not amongst his group of friends….but we used to stay on the same hostel floor for a brief period of time……

I always considered him kinda out of my league…..and his macho image and the bunch of losers he hung out with…….made me think he was totally straight…….

But now that I think retrospectively……there were times when he did approach me himself…..always had time to talk to me….and this one time kept brushing his crotch against my hand…….(while only wearing his underpants……boner…..even now…..)……

And there were times when he left his door open and when I could sneak in a look……seen him numerous times in his underpants…..and once a glimpse of his butt……hot!!!

Now that he’s somewhere in Harvard…..how I miss him…..don’t know why suddenly…..why today……..

I am Sick.....and Ugly.....

I am sick…*the great viral fever* that has been affecting the great city of Mumbai…….filling up the clinics of family physicians (and in turn filling their pockets as well….) has brought me down…….

So that takes care of the weekend……

Down goes all the Sunday entertainment…..gymming and steam with hot guys…..evening out and dinner with friends…..et al….

And it’s just staying home and doing nothing but listening to some good music and good home food….and it’s better that way….’coz…..I have such a busy schedule lined up tomorrow and was working so hard last week as well…..

But all the work and the illness has taken its toll…….I have not been eating at regular times and haven’t been working out as well…..

Result….a paunch and a double chin…eeekkkksss…..looking very very ugly right now……

But why is this obsession to keep looking better….what does it matter…..and why more with gay men???

Hard to say….but it may have to do with a lot of insecurities that we have and especially so…..due to the non-conformity of the *traditional family* structure……

Anyway…whatever may be the case……at present……Neither do I look good nor do I feel good…….

And of all the things……with all my ugly and sick self…..I met this guy yesterday……he is a professional colleague of mine……who happens to be married…..and had a small talk with him as well…..

Every time I meet him…..I feel like just grabbing his face….and having a really really long make-out session….. I dunno why……

Not that he is good-looking or has a great body or anything else…..but it’s just something about him that just makes me think of sucking his tonsils out of his mouth…..

And thou' he is married....I have this strong feeling that he prefers men and does have a crush on me as well.....maybe some wishful thinking....or it's my skewed *Gaydar* working again????....Hard to say.....

Footie Closets........

With the world cup football in full swing…it’s *Footie Eye Candy*…...for all the gay men world-wide…...(I seriously do question the sudden interest a lot of “straight men” develop for football…… maybe they also are fascinated by hot fit men running in shorts and taking their shirts off at the end of the match…)

So….someone like me….who does not have a lot of interest in the technicalities of the game…..watches it for the pure interest in watching these men trotting in shorts…..

How I terribly miss all the 80s football where the shorts were of the *right* size……I hope they come back in fashion in the near future…….

Based solely on sexiness….here is a list of my favorites……(I have….with great difficulty…..narrowed it down to 4…as this post is not really about my favorite footballers)…..

Andriy Shevchenko

Andriy Shevchenko

Kaka

C Ronaldo


Steven Gerrard

The post is really about the fact that not a single footballer in my knowledge is openly gay!!!

They say that one in every ten men is gay…..thou’ I am not very sure about it…… with so many football teams……there has to be atleast one footballer who has to be a faggot….

So why don’t they admit it???? I have lived in Europe and with wide acceptance of even gay marriages…it is difficult to comprehend why these sportsmen still live in the closet???

Will they not be selected if they are gay???
Will the not get their sponsorship deals???
Will they not be well respected???
Will they lose their entire fan following???

There are rumors that surface up every now and then about so and so football player being gay…but not only do they deny it….but nothing is ever heard about it again…..

So why does the football locker-room has so many closets??? Difficult…..eh???

What do they look like.........

For about two months now….I have been regularly reading some blogs….. some bloggers have got their own photos displayed in the profile….while others (like me)……have Brandon Routh’s……..well,,,,that’s becoz either they are not ready to reveal themselves (in the closet) or may be they don’t want to……or a bit of everything…..(or are they ugly….like me???)……

But anyway….have you ever wondered….now that you read what they actually think thru the day……what they look like???

I know I do……while going thru their blog I commonly wonder what they look like…..

So here is how I think some bloggers look…I apologize in advance if you are offended or you do not fit the bill…….

Ramo……Hot Tamil guy (I have a thing for South Indian guys…)…..not very tall….thunder thighs….thick dick……

Hanuman ……difficult to visualize with the hairy monkey *avatar*…..and honestly….I don’t even know whether you are of Indian origin or white???? But I think you must be a GWM in his 40s (hanuman1960)….very nice…quite polite and sexy!!!

Imphal …..reading your sexual exploits…I think you must be really hot and sought-after…..tall….a bit high-strung….and great in bed…..

VJ…..another guy from Chennai or is it Hyderabad??? Tall….thin….swimmer’s body……

Once again…..again tall….drives a Honda….smart….a bit camp…..and probably stays close to where I stay???

SATC…..again a tall Mumbai boy…may be good-looking……one of those arty kinds…and intelligent….

Neil…very cute Spanish boy….very outgoing and smart….fun to be with…..

Rye…..hot Canadian lawyer (that’s what his profile says)…..would love to see his *briefs*……

GayBanker ….suited British bloke….typically seen walking down the business district of Aldgate, London……yummmmm…..

and CloseTalk...I realy cannot picture you....probably will have to see you for that...

If you beg to differ…..please leave a comment…..

You guys are most welcome to write what you think about me as well in the comments……

Suburban Plague!!!

The roads of suburban Mumbai have been invaded by a different kind of plague……a kind of deluge of extremely large cockroaches running across the roads indiscriminately………AUTO-RICKSHAWS…..the worst automobile ever invented by mankind……and the distinction for this goes to BAJAJ AUTOMOBILES……

For those of you who are foreign to this auto-rickshaw thing……please look at the attached pictures and follow this *link*………




Auto-rickshaw is the worst kind of thing that you can encounter while you are driving in Suburban Mumbai…… (I say suburban…’coz they are not allowed in downtown Mumbai…and thank God for that……)

If you are driving and you see an errant richshaw-wallah…the following expletives come to your mind (or may be you say them aloud………)……*Chutya* (Fucker)…….*Bhen-Chot* (Sister-Fucker)….*Mader-Chot* (Mother-Fucker)…..*Gandu* (Bugger)……et al…..



They are a breed of people and the worst breed that anyone has seen…they have absolutely no traffic sense and stop any where they want to…

They are single-handedly responsible for clogging the Mumbai roads and making life miserable of thousands of Mumbai drivers… and if they bang on to you they are least bothered....it does not cost them much to mend....while you spend thousands of rupees repairing your car.....BASTRARDS…

Basically an auto-rickshaw has an engine that is not very powerful…..but since it is a three-wheeler….it can turn at a very small radius and go through any nook and corner of the road…..this feature gives them the advantage of turning at a sharp angle and can easily go between two cars……

So now you have an imperfect slow machine that can go any where ……and mind you at a very slow speed…..so they not only block the road by coming in between the cars….but they also run at a slow speed ahead of you so that you can neither go fast nor can you overtake them…

The RTO (government road traffic authorities…) have issued so many rickshaw licenses that over 90% vehicles that you see on the road are auto-rickshaws……they are there everywhere….and at any time….(and while I am typing this post….at half past midnight….the only noise that I can hear is of the auto-rickshaw)…..

A real nuisance is all they really are….and with all the smoke and the noise they spread around…….these suburban cockroaches are nothing but a PLAGUE that we need to get rid of!!!



can you see the resemblance

Gaydar........

If I see anyone good looking or cute or handsome or sexy …….why do I think he is GAY???

Do most of the gay men think on similar lines….or is it that I am just hoping….just hoping…. that this hot guy is gay……

It’s not always true and some really hot-looking men never evoke this kind of a response…….

So is it just some useless random thought???…..some kind of wishful thinking???…..

Or is it that my *Gaydar* is doing its job……it’s just that it activates so very often that…it really makes you think is there some thing as stupid and irrational as *Gaydar* or is it some kind of a *smart homosexual invention* to justify a guy asking some other guy out???

Now I really would like to believe that *Gaydar* works….but how come no smart-ass gay man with the so-called *Gaydar* has predicted that I am gay??? Or none of my predictions about anyone else being gay turned out to be true???

And in a country like India where there is a large chunk of gay men who are either married or are in denial or are in the closet (like me)…..when asked if they are gay….will lie through their teeth….so you never know if your *Gaydar* has worked….

Freak science or not…..I do believe that there is something like *Gaydar*….and it does work…..and I have a good gaydar……at least it fuels all my fantasies ;-)

Why am I.........

Why am I feeling more and more frustrated???

Why am I drifting away from my goals???

Why am I not focused???

Why am I not seeing things as clearly as I should???

Why am I working not hard enough???

Why am I wasting my time doing useless things???

Why am I sexually starved???

Why am I still single???

Why can’t I be as studious as I used to be???

Why have I lost my self confidence???

Why am I always unhappy???

This year has been *Annus horribilis* till now…..but can not be a quitter……

Need to radically do something about it…….Need to change…….Can and will do it……..

Out Of League...........

Monday is the day I really look forward to……on Mondays I get to work-out with these two very good-looking men!!!

I had never spoken to them ever…..till today……

Hunk No. 1…..Hrithik proto-type……you can just drown into his inviting grey eyes…….body I would die for…….and perfect hair……almost like you do not want to touch him….lest you may introduce some impurities……

And of all the things I saw him in his briefs!!! Loose,,,saggy,,,,unflattering…and did not look like he was packing much there either!!!

But then watching him change…..even those ugly briefs looked good on him!!! And this reminded of one of Imphal’s posts of his room-mate…..so very true Imphal…..briefs don’t matter if they are worn by a hottie!!!

Hunk No. 2……looks like a ramp model…. tall hunky type lad…..really great bod……beautiful skin and beautiful face…….more fuller body than Hunk No. 1……great ass…..lovely smile…..never changes in the locker-room.......

Now what happened was…..I had a small talk with Hunk No. 1……and *Hi…Hello* with Hunk No. 2……

I had never spoken a word with any of them and talking to them caused my heart to flutter…….

But then there is this other chap who is over-weight and not-so-good-looking…..seems very nice though……and I know that he gawks at me every time he sees me in the gym working-out…..

And he had small talk with me in the locker-room as well…….

So did I cause any flutters in his heart???? And then I thought…..if he was bold enough to ask me out….what would I reply????

Honestly…..I am not at all bad-looking (honestly…) and think I am *Out of his League*…… and I would have declined his offer politely…….

So the same goes for me as well….. I think I am *Out of League* for these Hunks (No. 1 & 2) as well and think they look much better than I do…..so is there any reason to be happy for me…if I chat with them???

So now we have a lot of single men who want to hook up with someone for whatever……friendship….sex….etc. etc……but they never do ‘coz they form *Leagues* in their own minds and include people and exclude people……

What are these *Leagues* anyway…..they are not real…they are imaginary…..and…. hey…they don’t help us in anyway…..so why do we form them????

I really don’t know……but will I stop forming these so-called *Leagues*????

I don’t think so…….

Hanuman Bhakts........

Before I start writing anything…..let me apologize….just in case I hurt anyone’s religious feelings…..as I have never intended to…….and this is especially for my good friend.....Hanuman….whose blog I religiously read…….and I know that he is an ardent Hanuman Bhakt!!!

I know this post could become very controversial….but had to write it……

I was just passing by this small Hanuman temple today.....(Hanuman is the Monkey-god in Indian mythology and also one of my favourites....).... and saw this really hot guy sitting by the temple steps……he did look like a devotee and this reminded me of the gym-receptionist….who also happens to be sexy…..and is always engrossed in writing some religious chants….of who else but God Hanuman!!!

And that gets me to think…….this sect of people who pray to Hanuman preferentially….. (Hindus have 33 million Gods!!! And people are free to choose whom to pray and how many Gods to pray to)……..is it inclined towards Homosexuality???

Forgive me if this post is blasphemous….but I am a Hindu myself and I am writing this out of rational thinking…….and being a true Hindu……..I know how accommodating Hinduism is and how free ideas are always accepted……and I am taking that advantage now……

Think about it……

Hanuman Bhakti Sects…..advocate…..
1. Not getting married……bachelors for life……Bramhacharis…..
2. It is *Men-Only* sect and women are not allowed….
3. Regular physical exercises called *varjish*…..
4. The sport of *Kushti*………
They have *Akhadas* or wrestling rings where they have traditional Indian wrestling bouts……and anyone who has seen traditional Indian wrestling will know how homo-erotic it is……..they change together……they were smallest of the loin-cloths available called *langoti*…….and there is a lot of body contact……and I think it is the most erotic form of wrestling the world over!!!!

How Gay is all that???? It’s the life-style of a single gay man who loves to go to the gym to look good…..wants a legitimate reason to hang out with other men…..and loves erotic wrestling!!!

So was this form of worship…..or the distinct regulations for the believers…..an invention of someone who was gay and was living in an essentially sexually repressed India….or it was the smart ancient Indian way of integrating gay men into the society without ostracizing them????

If you look into the way ancient Indians lived…the second reason……. (the smart ancient Indian way of integrating gay men into the society without ostracizing them)….seems to be logical as these Indians who lived thousands of years back were very open-minded and intelligent……

So what was it really….some food for thought…….

Outrage of Modesty.........

Was watching television right now and there is this bimbo called *Rakhi Sawant*…..who BTW already has a case against her for obscenity……has sued someone else called *Mika* for forcibly kissing her!!!




This thing has been on the news for a few days now and there are footages of Mika’s birthday party where this thing happened and now along with the law….* National Commission for Women (NCW)* with the formidable Ms. Girija Vyas….are involved……

Surely there is a debate as to whether Rakhi Sawant should be taken seriously…..as she not only looks cheap but performs in equally cheap dance shows…..and then she files a suit of obscenity…..against someone who is a dear friend of hers and whose kiss on cheek goes the wrong way….on her lips!!!

But I think she is very much justified in what she says and the fact that she has taken legal action against Mika……..she did not want to be kissed on the lips and he did that and that according to me amounts to *Sexual harassment*….if I can say that…….

No doubt she is getting a lot of publicity for it…but who does not want to hog the lime-light and she is taking the maximum advantage of the situation…..and why not???

I am no lawyer……but this case in India can be registered as *Outrage of Modesty of a Woman*….. and is a criminal offense……

And that brings me to one more point……India being a country of double standards…..why is there a law that penalizes only a man for *outraging* the *modesty* of woman????

There is no law that penalizes anyone for doing any damn thing to a man……in Indian legal books……man is anyway immodest and whatever you do to him sexually against his wishes never should offend him…..and that includes rape……

This is a total *Non-Issue* for the Indian government…the parliament…..the law-makers…and most of all the Indian people……

So if we would have had a situation where Rakhi Sawant kisses Mika forcibly….. (actually not only would have Mika ignored it…rather he would have bragged about it)….and if he would have protested against it……every single person would have had a hearty laugh…….at his expense……

And a random thought of the day.....Abhishek Bachchan is HOT........

Love.......

Was watching something on television…..while writing this blog…..and the program was so touching that it prompted me to erase the entire blog and write the following…….

LOVE…..it is one of the purest forms of emotion…….

……will I ever find anyone who loves me????

Loves without expecting anything……

Loves the person for what he / she is…..

Loves anyone unconditionally……

Loves and lets live free, breathe free, fly free……

…will I???

Late-Night TV.......

Late-Night TV in India......Dull....Boring....too Chaste???

What do we have to do to see some dick on Indian Television???

The media is so *not free* and we call this a *free-country*…..and of all the things we call ourselves *The Biggest Democracy* and brag about it…. (Of course, we have nothing else to brag about)……

Any channel (cable TV included)……you watch or any newspaper or magazine you read…it is almost impossible to find nudity….and frontal nudity is miles away……

There used to be a time (and it seems a long long time ago) that the movies were allowed to show at least some *ass* and rate it as 18+……

But then came *Ms. Hypocritical Orange* (saffron from outside with a sour interior)…Ms. Sushma Swaraj…..* the One and the Only…Preserver of Hinduism*…..banning this and banning that saying it was lewd and obscene…..

And that nudity…a product of western culture…..has to be banned and no one should see anyone naked on screen….and this too coming from a nation that gave the entire world Vatsayana’s Kamasutra (a sexual manual long time before Masters and Johnson)…….and with Khajuraho (with sculptured sexual positions)…….and Black and White films with nudity in them…….

Sure, people don’t want to see you politicians naked, Ms. Swaraj…..but good -looking people naked…..OH YES!!!

Then there were laws and before you know…..censorship was everywhere…..even the broadcast of soft-porn by cable operators stopped……

So now you have everything snipped and even late at night when you expect hot stuff….the TV is dull and boring……

I remember….while living in the UK….9.00 pm is the watershed after which full-frontal nudity is allowed and strangely the only thing that is banned is *An Erect Penis*….and it is the responsibility of the parents to decide what or what-not their children should see…..

Here we have a government which instead of taking the responsibility of feeding the children and taking care of their people is more interested in banning nudity on TV…and repressing the sexuality of millions of already sexually repressed Indians…..

So what next???

Internet Censorship???

So much in the name of *The Biggest Democracy*

Gay???....No way!!!

While going to one of my work-places….I pass by this shop which is manned and probably owned by this really hot and cute looking guy…..

This guy is very very attractive and we always exchange glances…..but every time I do think without fail…*Gay???....No way!!!*…..

And why is that??? He belongs to this group of Gujarati (an Indian community) shopkeepers (who also happen to be ultra-conservative)……and thinking that some man from this group actually will go ahead and fuck guys is kinda unimaginable to me…..

And then I got thinking there are other groups as well where men appear to be ALWAYS STRAIGHT….like for instance…I really cannot imagine a *Gay Sardar* (Sardar : Men from Sikh community)…it’s just that they are so manly and macho and almost always married, family men with kids……

And so also…married men taking care of their kids…..they seem to be so very happy in their house-hold life – wife and children - that an alternative sexuality seems to be a distant or impossible possibility…..

But that is my personal opinion and it may sound prejudiced to some and I will receive a lot of flak for it….I am ready for it ‘coz that’s what I genuinely think……

And am I guilty for stereotyping gay men???......

I do know it for a fact that gay men come in all shapes and sizes and are found in any and every community, caste and nationality….but it is the image of any particular person or the place where he lives/ works that makes the difference for me….

Probably that is why I am still single!!!

Nude and Ugly.....Indians???

It still seems like summer…with no rains in Mumbai City!!!

And with all the sweat…. you really wish you can move around naked…..

And what a coincidence!!!……. watching *Seinfeld* now as I write this post and *Elaine* is talking of *Nudist Colonies*!!!

And with my hairy self and shaved balls….sure I would look very funny!!!…..haven’t been to one but sure would like to visit one for the kicks….

But do you think Indians look good naked…most of us do not….brown and hairy….sounds racist…but not if it is coming from a true-blood Indian!!!

I think most of us are fat and do not take any care of the way we look and are total gluttons….I mean look at most of the people around you just eating and eating....at road-side stalls and restaurants!!!

Gyms are full of poeple, most of whom never are bothered about their waists and the roads are full of the rest who never know what a gym is....

Too much of tangential thinking!!! From nudist colonies to fat Indians!!!

Anyway….really planning on some kind of vacation – actually a couple of vacations...…the Indian destination of choice seems to be Chennai and the foreign one somewhere in the Americas….just need to search for some cheap air tickets!!!

Blissful.....

Blissful…that’s what I was today……

Had a good rest….good meals…and nothing much to do…..

But there was no particular reason to be so blissful……

Sad memories keep coming back to haunt me especially in these times….and then I think that I really haven’t got much of a reason to be happy….then why am I still happy???

I guess….I am satisfied with small things in life and they are the ones that keep me happy and blissful….

And now back to the *superficial* stuff that maketh my blog….

Had gone to the gym today and today being Monday…I get to see the hot guy on whom I have my *semi-crush*….(refer to *I am sad*…..June 05…Reason 14)....…

And of all the things…we changed together!!!! Yeah!!! Unfortunately….could not see much… But was able to flaunt some of my wares…dunno if he saw them???

And also *ran on to* the hot trainer from my gym while he was changing…good stuff!!!....was that the reason for being blissful??? ;-)

FUCKING HACKERS...SOBs...BASTARDS.....

My blog was hacked the other day.....

I really do not know why it was targeted....

I HATE these FUCKING HACKERS.....

Did not want any further damage and so deleted the entire blog...and after a gap of a few days have restarted the blog....

Have tried to retrieve the previous posts.....but could not retrieve all of them and miss all the precious comments....

Also....a few exciting things that happened in the meanwhile like being able to see my hot trainer in the locker-room changing could not be told....

But will try blog regularly from tomorrow and it's good to be back!!!

Didn't I tell you.......June 06

Hey guys,,,,..nothing much to tell you today.....

So doing what the news channels are doing right now.....if nothing else to talk about...let's talk about Rahul Mahajan.....

So the poor guy was arrested today.... Feel very sorry for him....he will have to go to a *posh* prison for two whole days....

And didn't I tell you that the sexual angle to the story was very significant.....Mumbai Mirror ran a story on its front page....which says....a servant found both Rahul and Maitra naked in a jaccuzi!!!

And as for me....had a very uninteresting day today.....and nothing interesting lined-up tomorrow as well....but let's see.......

I am Sad.......June 05

Just some random thoughts for the day.....

I am sad becoz........

1. I am not doing what I actually wanted to do all my life.....

2. I am not motivated and hard-working as I used to be......

3. People have been robbing me of my hard earned money.....

4. People do not always believe in me........

5. Only my family loves me......and no one else....

6. I do not have a partner to love (at present).....

7. I am very under-rated.....

8. I am presently involved in a very mediocre kind of a job.....

9. I think I deserve a much better life......

10. A few of my patients do not bother taking the medication prescribed and do not follow-up regularly and blame it on me for not getting better....

11. I miss my dead dog.....

12. I haven't seen a lot of places or traveled much.....

13. I am very lonely.....

14. The guy from gym....whom I have a *Semi-Crush* on....does not even look at me.....(And he came very late today which happens to be the only day when we work-out at the same time....)

15. I miss my college and the *old-times*.....

16. I have to work odd hours.....

17. I don't have a lot of opportunities to wear casual clothes......

18. I am losing hair......

19. A few of my patients (very few....mind u....)....are dissatisfied....

20. I cannot work-out leisurely everyday.....

21. I have lost a lot of opportunities....

22. I am going through pain right now.....

That's all....PHEW.....

If anyone reading this....wants to add a few things of their own that they are sad about.....feel free to write up in the comments section and I will upload it on today's blog......

Ahh....Sunday!!!......June 04

Had gone to the gym after a long time....very lazy....that's what I am.....
And now due to lack of working out, getting a double chin....

Bad music as usual...but spotted a posh totty and a few hot totties.....But none of them got my gaydar ticking.....except for one who definitely gave me *the look* before he left....hopefully may get lucky if I see him more....

Sadly....missed a "steam" session with one of the (or the only) hot trainers in the gym...he went for steam and shower before I did....could not follow him I as was in the middle of my work-out...and did not want to look too desperate or needy!!!

And with all the news channels still on the *Rahul Mahajan Case*....with Vivek Moitra dead.....three guys- Tishay, Rahul Malhotra and Karan interrogated and Sahil, subsequently arrested....I am sure police will have some more links to the case....

But what beats me is.....why is police so mum about the possible sexual angle to the case as well???

Think about it....two men (Rahul and Vivek)......party-goers with no girlfriends ever.....Vivek.....already under he scanner for his sexual preferences....call four young good-looking guys for drinks and drugs....at night and nothing else happened????

Anyway...enough of Rahul...need to do something intersting today...or watch some Bollywood movie....(not seen one for a long time!!!)

Sunday Cruising.....Any Suggestions???......June 03

And now for some plans for tomorrow....it's Sunday.....yeahhhh!!!

Haven't got any plans for tomorrow except for some long due household chores....yes, I am a homely boy who believes in helping out at home!!! (ahem)

But my evening is free and don't have any thing to do in particular.....

And then I start wondering....though having lived in Mumbai all my life.... I don't know any places in particular known for cruising....

You do have some desperate-looking men at the usual coffee shops like *Barista* and *Cafe Coffee Day*.....but I dunno whether they are looking for other men or they are just lazing around and do you actually land up picking any one at these places.....

A city like Mumbai, I am sure, will have lots of other places...but my ignorance still stays with me!!!

and with some other friends always with me on Sundays....I don't see any one hitting on me or making a subtle pass in the near future.....sigh!!!

And now for some weekly dose of *Paris and Nicole*.....love 'em.....they are the BEST.....so end of the blog!!!

Boxers or Briefs???.......June 02

Was changing and realized had no choice but to wear this old pair of briefs.....and they were really really tight (dick popping out)!!!

Can't remember whether they were tight back then as well or I should be thanking my habit of pleasuring myself daily...

And that's when I thought of going back to wearing boxers....

I was in this boxer phase while living in London ( M & S were pretty decent....)and thought they were very comfortable....preferred to let 'em hang loose.....

But then suddenly reverted back to briefs....

So now I have had
1. Y fronts
2. Briefs
3. Boxers
4. And briefs again....

In that order....

Have occasionally gone commando but never worn a thong!!!

Still indecisive about boxers or briefs but definitely want my guy in a sweet short tight BRIEF!!!

WHole-Some Education....June 01

Was watching *Oprah* this afternoon.......(Not an Oprah Fan......but some of the topics are worth giving a thought......)

And today's topic was one of them.......it was about teachers and students who have been in a relationship (Read: teacher-student bonking!!!)

What the blabber-mouths went on and on about did not interest me nor did I watch the entire program.......but the general feeling about this kind of relationship was that of horror, shock and disgust.....

I can understand the parent's point of view.....but what's wrong with two consenting people having sex???

If both the partners agree to sleep with each other without force of any kind....why should it be so shocking???

The argument against this could be that one of them (the student) is not of a legal age and not a consenting adult....but who is to decide at what age one can give consent for sex??? Why only the Law and Society??? And why can't the individual decide for himself/ herself if he/ she fully and completely understands what sex is???

Even in places like the UK.....the age for medical consent can vary and an underage girl can have a pregnancy terminated with just her own consent without parent's / guardian's knowledge.....then why should there be so much of an argument about this???

I think if someone wants to sleep with someone else....willingly and without any force or pressure.....and both know the consequences of the same....it becomes no one else's damn business but their own.....

And of other things....my life sucks right now....

And a random thought of the day.....John Abraham is a Closeted Gay....that's what I think....no proof provided!!!

AN EASY BMC RECIPE FOR CITY DISASTERS.....May 31

Rains lashed out in Mumbai today.....so the Jacobian cuckoo or as locally called *Chataka* proved more accurate than the Met Department....( the Met dept predicted that the rains will start on July 2nd while the *Chatakâ* who is seen just before the rains was seen yesterday)......

It has been raining very heavily since this evening and I really hope it is not the repeat of 26/7 only a bit too early!!!

With so much of rain....I was sure to find my clinic empty....but I braved my way though and finally reached....and thanks to the BMC had a lovely drive....

So here it is....AN EASY BMC RECIPE FOR CITY DISASTERS.....for various other City Councils and Boroughs to follow:

1. NEVER CLEAN THE DRAINS.......and if you do see to it that you do a shoddy job or leave the garbage at a place where it can block the drains again.....The roads around my place were already water-logged and makes you wonder....did the municipal authorities do anything through the year or have they just lazed around and swindled with all the tax-payer's money???? CORRUPT BASTARDS.........

2. SAVE ELECTRICITY.......and the best way to do it is never to service any street lights prior to rains or check any electricity cables.....frequent power-cuts and lack of street lights will save a lot of electricity....

3. NEVER CO-ORDINATE.....with any other department whatsoever....below their dignity to do so....

4. ROADS AND TRAFFIC.....roads are incomplete without open pot-holes, bumps, ditches, et al....and rains have to be synonymous with traffic jams.......and so even with just the first rains....when the traffic can be chaotic.....saw very few pandus (traffic police).....
Though the traffic was not as chaotic as ever and most of the people were driving cautiously....there were exceptions like some odd car driver who wants to get ahead of you or someone who wants to drive with a full upper beam for head-lights and then there are rickshaw-wallahs who just stop on the middle of the road and switch off all the lights.....

Despite all this we have to give some credit to the BMC/ MMRDA.....for transforming a part of the Western Express Highway into a mini-Khandala......with numerous mini waterfalls underneath all the fly-overs for all the people who can not afford to take a vacation to enjoy!!!

Crossroads....May 30

Was driving through the suburb where I stay enroute to my clinic and got caught into a really bad traffic jam.....moving at snail's pace reached an intersection.....

Could go right or could go left.......either ways was fine as the road finally met......went left and then realized that the other road was better....took a lot longer to reach and got really late for my clinic.....

So how often is it that we take the wrong route in life????

May be very often.....and do we have to pay for it???.....and if we do, do we pay forever????

I think we often take the wrong route....and pay for it...and sometimes all through our life.....

But if we stick to our path and see the destination clearly......we eventually reach there....maybe late and wounded....but eventually we are there.....

Sorry for the philosophical mood!

BTW...do you guys watch the Footie World Cup re-runs on ESPN every night...you may be lucky enough to see some dick/ass and other locker-room stuff...if not anything else, you will always have hot guys running in really tiny, tight shorts if it's the 80s...check it out!!!

Mr. S, the Bank Guy...May 29

Was not feeling too well yesterday and slept early.....hence the late post.....

Had been to the local bank yesterday after a long time and met this bank guy who handles my account.......

He is kinda good-looking in his own way and handles me (??my account) pretty well!!!

So if you are reading this, Mr. S, thanks!!!

and if you want to get together and do anything other than banking....most welcome....

So this post is dedicated to you!!!

Rains.....May 27

Finally.....rains.....

some temporary respite from the hot weather in Mumbai!!!

The last couple of days were especially hot and very very humid....what was the humidity like??? 110 %???

Sweated like a pig.....kept changing my clothes and had a lot of *dirty laundry*....

Missed the rains yesterday (it rained at like 4.00 am in Mumbai last night...

So today when it rained...there were a lot of people on the streets getting wet....was nice to watch them dance in the rain....

But it still is going to stay hot till the monsoon starts and it hasn't even reached Kerala....so keep sweating you guys and stay put hot, sweaty and stinky....

Watching Kylie Minogue sing on zee cafe!!!(why is she so popular with gay men???)

And now with some rugby!!! Hot!!!

And now some Colin Farrell movie!!!

And now for some Paris and Nicole in the *Simple Life - Interns* !!! (love 'em both and I wish they were still good friends)

What's it today? *Saturday Night Gay TV*

Need to surf TV for more of gay stuff.....Need to end the blog for the day....

The place where I live....May 26

What has happened to the place where I live???

I live in a relatively quiet, small, green and a nice Mumbai suburb....

Many years ago...it used to be the way I have described above....however lately it is anything but *quiet* and *nice*....it still is *green* (ok) and can't grow any bigger so has to be the same size.....

It has become so damn crowded that it is difficult to even walk on the streets....you see cars everywhere & anytime....and then there are a whole lot of auto rickshaws......and other obstructive objects (read: fat gujju womenfolk merrily walking in groups)!!!

The pollution and the dust become really unbearable and children can just forget about cycling to their coaching classes or gyms (if they still use a cycle....lazy slobs!!!)....

And still it demands a high price in the Mumbai Real Estate Market (Amazing)!!!
(more on the place where I live...later....)

Flat tummy.....May 26

Masturbate regularly for a flat tummy!!!!

Wedding Season.....May 24

So it's officially the *Indian Wedding Season* or at least that I suddenly realized it as I was driving back home tonight......*Spring/Summer* edition the *Fall/Winter* one will follow in December....

Every wedding hall including the make-shift ones at every nook and corner of the numerous hutments lining the highway...was full of people with loud blaring music and lights......people dancing and lots of fire-works.....and of course, clogged roads!!!

With so much of heat and sweat that makes you stink.....people still enjoy and that is what makes India unique.....and this is what really makes you miss India while living abroad!!!

And of the other usual things....my visit to the gym was boring as usual with either fat men or fat teenagers slowly and steadily working on the treadmills and my kamai touching a new daily low with the wedding season and vacations resulting in *still so empty* clinics!!!sigh!!!

p.s. kamai - earnings...

Feel like taking a vacation....May 23

I feel like taking a vacation......

When I first started operating....I thought if I were to operate throughout my life, life would feel like an endless holiday.... I really do love to operate!!!

But as a practicing surgeon....there are so many other things that make up your professional life and many of these things are uncalled for and unpleasant and that is what makes it so much dull and monotonous!!!

Practice in Bombay seems to have gone to dogs and with the general practitioners (most of them being imbecile....some of them having very funny degrees as well) referring you most of your patients and expecting a monetary share out of the referrals....

Makes you think whether all this education was really worthwhile???

They have come to a point where they will try to order a consultant around and try to advise them..........SOBs.....

And then there are other surgeons who do nothing but bitch about their fellow colleagues and then some whose knowledge in their subject is so inadequate that you sometimes wonder who passed them.....

Result.....a skeptical patient who thinks....you want to rob him/her of his/her money....and is always reluctant to believe you.....

Makes you want to really really take a break......

Officially Ugly....May 22

Had an absolutely great weekend....saw a few places, met a few people and had a wonderful time....

Just loved the drive as well....long, empty roads where you can go at an amazing speed.....

Came back tired and back to my own base....and back to my sad daily routine....
Thus, ends the weekend!!!

Had gone to the gym later on and this is where I realized that I am now *Officially Ugly*!!!

Back from the weekend trip, I am now tanned, plump and today looked very, very tired....and with this gym and its whole lot of mirrors....you are reminded of your sorry state wherever you look.....

And then you have some guys....especially this really good looking one and someone else whom I have nick-named junior Hrithik....who keep looking in the mirrors and reassert the fact that you are not in their league....

But then the blow that made me *Officially Ugly* was from this guy who didn't even throw a glance and the way he dressed screamed *gay all the way!*

Enjoy your Weekend...May 20

Hey Guys....enjoy your weekend with the gb party on saturday...and the rest of the stuff on sunday...gb meet et al...

As for me....had a very very busy day and too tired to pen anything....(did earn a decent amount of money as well...)

But hope to have a gr8 weekend and will be back on Monday...

Boring......May 18

Boring!!!

that's what today's day was.....and I am watching *100 Biggest Celebrity Oops* can it get any worse???

Sometimes the day seems to be so long that it just seems to be endless....drags on and on and on and on and on.....and on.....

but before you know it's already Thursday and then all you need to do is wait for two more boring days and then it's Sunday.....Yeah!!!

Going out of station for the weekend so pretty excited about it.....hope to have a gr8 time!!!

Till then it's the same old same old...examining patients and giving galis while driving (god knows how many times I said chutya) today.....

Gay Celeb Photos...May 17

Was just saying yesterday that I am a reckless driver...and had a minor accident today....

And also over-ran not one...not two.....but three red-lights....

And not a single pot-bellied pandu caught me...lucky.....phew!!!

Professionally had a very fruitful day and so happy about it...

Nothing else interesting...other than some things in today's newspaper...

Spotted TV star Amir Ali (a real hottie)...photographed in Bombay Times wearing a "Superman T-shirt"....HOW GAY IS THAT???

AND THAT'S NOT ALL....the award for the "Gayest Photograph" goes to....none other than "The Master Blaster" Sachin Tendulkar himself....Bending Down....TOI page 25...hmmmmmm...always knew he was a bottom....

in a Deep Slumber.....May 15

In a philosophical mood today.....

It seems like I am in a deep slumber.....just lost in me and life seems to be like a very very long dream.....

Does it happen to other people as well???

Have achieved quite a bit till now and no doubt that it does seem impressive to other people....but this was not what I wanted to do....I did want something else as well.....but am too tired right now....

and even if I know very well that I will be able to do what I want....I am really tired to do it....

and that IS the difference between successful people and other people like me....successful people are never get tired.....I guess.......

I, on the other hand, am just not driven enough...and just don't seem to have any energy to do it....

Really don't know if I can gain back the energy that I had....but I know that I will do it someday and will be there where I want to be....

late if not never....

Solidarity with all the Protesting Medicos.....May 14

Today's blog is dedicated to all the protesting medical students, interns and resident doctors wherever they are all through India....

I fully and completely support your cause....and am totally against reservations of any kind for professional courses as it is only fair that the entire thing should be based solely on merit....

As a member of the medical fraternity and having slogged my butt off to get the kind of marks you require to get into a government medical college and then to see someone with an appalling score also get in....and then later to see him/her get a post-graduate seat much more easily than you do....is kinda frustrating....

So all the medics protesting.....hats off to you......and all the best!!!

British Comedy and the Cute presenter........May 11

Gr8!!!....fucking frustrating!!!..i am really bad at typing .....and after typing the entire blog for the day i accidentally pressed the wrong button and the entire effort vanishes in thin air....

anyways....will try to recreate it again....

drove really fast to reach in time for the British comedy that they air on star world Saturday nights....

absolutely love the British but only for their comedy (absolutely hate them for everything else)....to name a few.....little Britain (tops the list)...absolutely fabulous....absolute power....coupling...2dtv....goodness gracious me....

i think they really know how to crack intelligent jokes, make people laugh and not make a fool of themselves....

and then while still in elated mood after this stuff....was surfing the channels and spotted Mr. Cute Guy......this Hindi news presenter on....*Sahara Mumbai*...really fucking good-looking.....presently watching the same....

had it not been for him.......i would never have known that this channel existed....i hope you are reading this, Mr. Cute Guy and I hope you prefer men....at least looks like you do.....

also.....sadly no 80s football today....so no men to watch in tight small shorts....

anyways....back to moi....and i was just wondering....i started driving while still a school boy....and the roads were really really much better than today....

the traffic is too much....and while I was on the western express highway...spotted pavement bricks in the middle of the highway....totally accident prone....RIDICULOUS!!!

(and also btw spotted a hooker in the *bright* of the evening strutting her wares)....

and then you have these drivers who believe that shining a bright headlight at the approaching driver's face gives you the right to overtake him or preferentially cross him and so does honking continuously....

that also reminds me one of our old drivers who had taught me *upper dabane kaâ* when a car approaches you and then he/she will let you pass through....that's how we are taught.....

Saturday today and Sunday tomorrow.....sadly I will be working tomorrow morning...but those for you guys who won't be.....enjoy!!!

oz...May 12

as i write this blog...am watching hbo's oz on zee cafe...

isn't this series famous for its male nudity....

it's quite rare that i can come early enough to watch it every friday....

but whensoever i can.....i do make it a point to see it....

but where is the nudity??? can't see any nude men....

sometimes i think the censorship goes a bit too far and it actually takes away the essence of the show...

and with these self-proclaimed protectors of "indian culture" especially the saffron brigade who don't know shit about anything... don't see things improving in near future...

and finally...a firm white butt...good way to end today's blog!!!

of boring days and gay personals....May 11

working in summers is really boring and when you have nothing better to do (this is for the poor doctors who suffer from the intolerable slack season of may)....sigh!!!

so it's empty clinics with preggy receptionists happily knitting away and the non-preggy ones chatting on the phone....

that's about work...what else did i do in the spare time....was cruising....personals at gay.com

some really hot guys and i really hope i bump into them some day and they make a pass at me....wishful thinking...eh???

of Lokhandwalla and its "maal".....May 10

the best place for "garam maal" to market themselves has to be lokhandwalla...the road seems to be full of young people who want to look their best.....

juhu...where you can find me every weekend ogling....seem to lack this breed of men which lokhandwalla is full of...(no kidding...you can see them even on an odd day afternoon)...

and also with my juhu gym almost completely deficient of in the above category....i really wish i were in one of these lokhandwalla gyms that these fit bods frequent......

and again....while some of the posh lokhandwalla restaurants may lack the basic level of hygiene and may not provide a good service...what they do not seem to lack is a star clientelle....

while dining in one such restaurant ...i did spot a lot of "tv stars"...and god...some really good-looking ones and especially this guy with a great butt who comes in this spy serial or something like that....the service was pathetic and so was the food but all the eye-candy surely makes up for everything!!!

Summer Vacations...May 09

hmmm....summer vacations....

keep wondering why i am getting chubbier day by day...blame it on summers!!!

too much of sweets...too much to burn at the gym...

and to add to the existent ugliness...oily skin...oily hair...and sweat...ughhh!!!

but on the bright side or sunnier side.....all the "gaon-wallas" have gone to their "gaons" for a vacation and hence the empty roads....

could drive from one clinic to the other in no time...no traffic!!! :-)

Damn you....Bitch....May 08

troubled me...fucked me...tourtured my mind...damn you, bitch!

trying my best to get my life back on track...i am sure i will....

but do know that some days are going to be really, really sad...

a big thank you to all who have stood up for me...

Of Empty Clinics and Emptier Pockets...May 07

come May & its vacation time...

the time of empty clinics & emptier pockets...

not that i am complaining and not that my pocket was completely empty...but still...
sounds like someone who is "money-centric" and that makes me wonder...are all doctors "money-centric"???...or at least they seem to be....

was never like this in my med school or residency and would never ever think this way....but is my profession making me so gradually?...and is worse still yet to come?...

dunno...but will wait and watch...

anyway...watching "the simple life" right now and love paris and nicole...methinks they are very intelligent and eventually make good for themselves...they are really smart....;-)

it's finally sunday and a lazy morning...hot, sweaty guys in gym and finally night out with friends!!!

Spring??? May 05

the heat is too much....its like summers have already started...spring???

cuckoos cooing and bright-coloured blossoms...fresh scented air and warm breeze...

too good to last for a long time and summers are already here....or it atleast seems so...

too much heat and sweated out a lot at the gym today...and not a single decent face to look at...absolute paucity of a totty and thus...an absolute waste of money this gym is!!!

nothing interesting about today....just watching some men in really skimpy shorts playing with balls (an 80s football show)...hopefully that will make up for the boring day!!!

Will things ever change??? ....May 04

extreme frustration.....
- robbed of the money that is rightfully mine....
- robbed of the respect that i rightfully deserve...
- no friend to share...
- nothing to do...
will things ever change???

was reading Dorian Gray and realized how terribly i miss London...sometimes...

is this what happens to so called "smart, witty, well-educated" men.....lonely frustration???

The Love Of Many Things...May 02

It's Wednesday...And instead of Seinfeld...it's Sex and the City.......

a few nice things for the day...

1. sex and the city....and it struck me....just out of the blue....i would DATE CARRIE...FUCK SAMANTHA...MARRY CHARLOTTE and BE MIRANDA'S BOSS...how cool is that??? i really love this serial and do enjoy going thru' all the re-runs as well...

2. a really hot guy was kinda following me in the evening...or i wish he was...he actually was on a bike and we shared the same route....and what are rear view mirrors
for!!!

3. THE PICTURE OF DORIAN GRAY...had never read it before...and the preface itself was very impressive....

some of the quotes.... (warning...can be boring to some readers...)

the preface...
***those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt without being charming. this is a fault.

***those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated. for these there is hope.

and the book...

***real beauty ends where intellectual expression begins...

***she is a peacock in everything but beauty...

***i choose my friends for their good looks, my acquaintances for their good characters and my enemies for their good intellect....

and then there were other thing that happened today.... the usual frustrations i have....
incompetent salesmen....one of them got me really pissed...
and then patients who lie outright...

but the day did end with a with certain mr. chicken vindaloo and hence....The Love Of Many Things...

Virgin Gay !!! May 01

had a pretty good day today.....did not work much....as it happens to be my rest day....

no usual frustrations....no usual routine....just a nice relaxing day...

And now here i am, too bored to blog....and that gets me to think...do we blog only when we are frustrated???

i think we do...and not that there is anything wrong in it....
had been to one of the popular coffee shops recently and the moment i got in a lot of guys were kinda judging me or "sizing me up"...was very flattering...

and earlier that day there was this guy at the gym who was stealing glances....he was really cute but neither of us was bold enough to make any kind of move whatsoever

and have I ever got lucky with men?... of course not....

have got lucky with the opposite sex and i do love it... then what is it with guys???

so should i call myself a virgin? or a virgin gay? if that fits in the gay lingo...

TGI Saturday....Apr 29

its saturday.....and the indian weekend starts today....unlike the weekends that used to start on fridays when i was away....

so...tgi saturday...

had a lot of work today but was happy to see a lot of satisfied patients following up....

driving was as usual taxing...and this cunt of a man....tried to dabao my car on the express highway while i was driving back...sala motherfucker...tg i can blog this...

hope to have a gr8 weekend....a lazy one....meeting friends....going to the gym....walk on the beach....

any one up for a meet.....if at all some one is reading this!!!

Hot Guys....Apr 28

Hot guys....and so many of them openly gay from mumbai!!!!
check out www.ohlalaguys.com

thanks alek and steph and btw they are one of the best bloggers anyone can find.....
had a very uneventful day today...nothing too busy or hectic...a lot of phone conversations...

came home early and had time to watch "oz" on zee cafe...do like it but usually missed....

spent a lot of time looking at the profiles on ohlala....found some really hot guys and also some one whom i knew...always thought he was closet gay...but he claimed himself to be str8...and used to boast of his sexual escapades (with women...of course)...now says that he is bisexual.....good for him....but claims to be younger than he actually is!!! but guess that is excusable...so go have him guys ..... he's hot !!! sorry but can't tell you him name as of now....

Bisexual !!! ;-) ??? Apr 27

had a pretty much uneventful day...the usual stuff...some patients here and there and a lot of driving and that too in mumbai with all the rickshaws, bicycles, et al....

and btw also met a gr8 looking guy today who was married which brings me to the subject of bisexuality....

not that he was hitting on me or that i know he was a bi...but just thought he was (or a closet gay...just my gaydar...) and its just that i am bi myself !!!

lots people donot acknowledge that bisexuality could be a valid sexual preference...and call it an excuse for married gay men...

but it is very much existent and i can vouch for it...
we kinda ..have a switch ....but for me even if sex with women is very gratifying...i am very much attracted to men.....leaving me all the more confused!!!

anyway...a busy day lined up for me tom....see ya...

Je Suis....Apr 26

hi there....something about moi....in my first post ever...

my blog is simply called mumbai_jerry coz :

1. i have been always a mumbai boy to my very core

2. my name is not jerry but i hope to update my blog while watching the re-runs of "jerry seinfeld" (the only time of the day i can "really relax" - though today it's the re-run of "sex and the city")

my life is kinda boring...and there is a good chance that this blog may be boring as hell...

but that's what makes me wonder? why is it so boring.....

are well-qualified, decent-looking men programmed to lead a boring life???