Saturday, September 30, 2006

THE WAY YOU LOOK AT THINGS…..



Men pissing on roads……

a nuisance or a chance to see another dick ???

FOR MY EYES ONLY....AND NOTHING ELSE......

While browsing the net today…..I came across the Stade website……and this reminded me of the good old days…..when it used to be a kind of home page to my browser……

I was a total fan of the website……the photographs……and especially the videos…….they are really hot…..(so if you were ignorant of it till now…..go check it out !!! )

The photos make you drool and the videos give you a stiffie…….with all those hot French ruggers prancing around the locker-room naked……après-match !!!

And then came a time when I was the proud owner of the 2004 Dieux DVD and subsequently the 2005 one…….and God……it was total paisa vasool !!!

I watched it over and over again……till I grew tired of it…….

Yes !!! I did grow tired of watching all those perfect men…..walking around with there perfect abs…..and their perfect bums……and posing for the camera……

It was like they were teasing me from beyond the screen…..and making me feel they are just for my eyes only and not for anything else…….you cannot touch them…..feel them….or even talk to them…….and then I slowly I did not find them sexy enough……

Slowly the frequency of me watching the thing and the desire to watch them decreased and finally they were put to rest under my bed…..and were never touched……..

Anyway....leaving you with one of the latest photos from the Stade website......he's really cute......

Friday, September 29, 2006

A FEW WORDS........

Don’t we all need a little appreciation from other people every once in a while ???

Though we may know that we do a lot of good work…..are good professionally…….have good morals and ethics……we al feel better when someone else tell us that……

Even if we all say……we do not care about what other people think……I think that we do……and if they have something nice to say…..then we care even more …….

So why don’t we pass on a few kind words of appreciation for other people…….if we think that they are doing a good job…..why are we so stingy in saying that “you do a great job”……or “you look good”……etc…..etc….

A few words do make a difference…..just a few words…….

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RUGBY AND THE FRENCH......HMMMMM.......

Thursday, September 28, 2006

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do you want any help pulling those pants down.......

AM I A VEGETARIAN IN THE MEAT DEPARTMENT !!!


Why do they presume that my dick is very small ??? …..

Am I a vegetarian in the meat department ???…….

This is what I think when I open my Inbox…(on my regular email ID and not mumbai_jerry one)……..

The spam that I get is almost entirely of all the advertisements about how to grow your dick in size……..various devices,,,,,various exercises,,,,,various magic potions,,,,,et al……

But don’t worry all you guy……who see me as a potential shag….(if at all anyone sees me as one, to start with)…….I am good “down there”…..and I really do not need any devices,,,exercises or magic potions……

So why have they presumed that I have a small dick…….does my name indicate that I do have a small dick???…..or have they seen me after a swim in really cold waters of Scandinavia???……Anyway……I do not know……

But what about the people who are really not very happy to see their dick and think it is too small ???….

I am sure they must be obsessed with the fact that they do not have a dick that is large enough to satisfy them or their partner……

How much ever you say……SIZE DOES MATTER…..and not only to that person’s partner…..but also to himself…..and I think is responsible for a low self-esteem and is a cause for embarrassment for him as well……..even though others do not see it that way……

For me, size does not matter……and honestly so…….in fact….sometimes…..I can see someone with a small dick and that may turn me on…..but how do I convince a person who himself thinks that size does matter for me……..I have never been in this kind of situation before…..but I have been in a situation where I thought that the concerned person was hot…..but that person did not think so…..and no matter what I could not convince that person that I genuinely liked her looks….and then you can be really helpless…….

Anyway….here are some penis names in English and Hindi………

ENGLISH…..

bait and tackle
boner
choad
chubby
cock
dick
ding-a-ling
ding-dong
dork
endowment
fuck stick
fun gun
gherkin
hose (fire, etc)
knob
love gun
love pump
john thomas (popularised by Lady Chatterley's Lover)
johnson
joystick
junk
lad
love muscle ("Russell the")
main vein
manhood
meat puppet
Mr. Happy (As sung by 'Weird Al' Yankovic)
Mr. Jim and the Twins
one-eyed trouser snake
organ
package
peener
pee-pee
pee-wee
percy
peter
pickle
piny tenis "code" for tiny penis
pocket rocket
pole (pink, purple, sex, etc)
prick
pud
purple-headed womb broom
ram rod (Roger)
Rumple Foreskin
sausage
shaft
shlong
staff (chief of)
stiffy
skin flute
tallywhacker
todger
tool
tube steak
twig and berries
unit
wang
wee-wee
wiener
willie
Woody

AND IN HINDI.....

lingam
lavda
lulla
lund
lora

(my personal favourite.....lund).....

Monday, September 25, 2006

DREAMS……


Dreams………

What are they????

……….Just some weird phenomenon ???

………..A figment of our imagination???

………A peek into what the future holds for us ???

……….Something of an enigma the meaning of which we have to decipher ???

……….Or just something very insignificant……just one of those things……that we should not be thinking about once we wake up ???

I had a very strange afternoon dream…..and after waking up……I did remember it……and it was strange enough for me to blog about rightaway……

It was strange in a sense that it was not actually pertaining to me……but to some guy with long hair…who apparently was my boyfriend…….

So here it goes…….I am kissing some dude with long hair sitting at the back of my car……and then I go to drop him to his place…….and then he goes on to present some very expensive dress…..by some designer called *Bhumika Bajaj* to his friend called *Chandra* or something like that……who gets ecstatic…..and starts crying…….THE END….

I can remember the names of everyone…..but *my Boyfriend’s* …..

Strange…..it’s not about me…..it's about him…….and very weird…….and I somehow thought that I would share it with you…….before I forget it forever……..

And on a random note……on driving…..

1. For the first time I could drive at a speed of 100 on Western Express Highway….

2. I wish I had a very loud tape with the word “chutya” (fucker) on it….’coz I say that word so very often while driving….

Sunday, September 24, 2006

DILEMMA……


Sunday evening presented with a dilemma……not so very unusual…..but not very usual either……I did not know what to do for the evening…..

The morning was OK….and started with me examining some odd patient……..and then I was off to the gym…….

Gym was better than good today ….with a lot of hot totties….but sans my regular trainer……there was this really hot guy at the gym who was obviously packing a lot of stuff…..and provided a good fodder for my jerk-off session in the afternoon……good !!!

So…the morning went well……and the afternoon went orgasmic…….

Come evening…..I was faced with a dilemma…….what do I do??? Usually….I go out for dinner with my friends…..or an evening walk at the beach……..sometimes all by myself…..but I do enjoy it……

Today….I dunno what had happened….rejected a dandiya invitation (felt was too single to mingle amongst lovey-dovey couples)…..did not want to meet friends…..(thought had nothing to chat with them)……and did not want to go for my traditional beach-walk as well……

So what do I do ??? I did think for a long long time…..and could not think of anything interesting…..….

So I did nothin’ ???? And had quite a boring evening…….( a ferret as I am…..I would’ve shagged any decent man…..had I been given the opportunity…..)

I really hope….I do not have to face similar dilemmas in the future……

Anyway……of other things….my laptop is playing up…….and due to this….two things happened in a short span that it has conked off……

1. It is extremely boring to browse and blog using my desktop…..

2. lost a very good opportunity to chat with someone I wanted to talk with for a long long time……on gay.com…...by the time I could switch on my other comp and load a plug-in required for chat……he was offline…..must have got pissed….(so if you are reading this…..come back tom around 11.30 - 12ish….and sorry)……

And thus after a very heavy week……a very busy Saturday……my Sunday comes to an end…….

Thursday, September 21, 2006

I WILL RISE LIKE A PHOENIX……


And you will see………………….BITCH

LIFE’S NOT FAIR…….




Is life really not fair???

Or that it is fair…..and we say that as a part of our escapist tendency for a bad performance…..

Or that it our *bad karma*….that is playing up……

I, personally, am going through a very bad phase right now…….and this is what I think all the time……life’s not fair…..

And today while watching a program on television…..my belief got reinforced…….

There is this program….called *Lil’ Champs* that I do not watch regularly…….but I happened to watch it today…….it is about this young singing talents…..who sing and show their skill…..and some of them are really very good….I have to say……

Today’s votes were by mobile messaging…….and this girl…..called Shradda….lost !!!……Now she was very very good but unfortunately…..I think did not look good…..so I thought and so did one of the judges……and she received a very low vote score……sad……

Here I was going to type…..everyone knows she is good and says so……but if everyone thinks so……..why did she not get votes ???

So also is with politicians……people know the good ones around the block……so why are they not elected ???

If people are good in something why do they not get what is due to them ???

Is it something other than being good that you need ???

And is life really not fair ???

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

NEW GYM…..UPDATE…….


Day 2 in the gym was not as bad as Day 1…….

Actually……it was pretty good….au contraire…….

Ok…..so this is what happened…..this trainer to whom I was allocated…….and my first impression for whom was that he is a total *dhakkan* (dick-head…not literally….but figuratively)……turned out to be a *touchy* kind of a person……and that provided me with all the excitement I required for the work-out……..

He was holding my hands while I was at the pulleys…..like trying to help me during the work-out…….now, this may be like a surgeon feeling your bollocks if you have a hydrocele…..but nevertheless……I felt good…..

We also had some small talk…(and for some reason he thought that I was a Christian and did not look like a good ol’ marathi boy……)…….and for the rest of the time he was admiring himself in the mirror…..and adjusting his crotch (it looks like he is good down there….)…..and for me it was good entertainment looking at him trying to adjust his bulge….(I know I am sick and desperate…..can’t help it…..)…..

The hot-guy-count also went from a pathetic 1 ½ to 3…..still pathetic……..but thankfully, the Gujju-aunty-count went down significantly……maybe they are all at home making theplas and khakras for the forthcoming Navratri…….

Anyway…..the exercise regimen that the trainer had chalked out for me was good…..and it felt good working out after a long long time……..

And thus at the end of Day 2 my current aims from this gym are…..

1. Develop a nice bod…..

2. Get into the trainer’s pants !!!

Wish me luck !!!

ANDY AND JAKE..........



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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

NEW GYM……HMMMMMMMM……



Ok….so I finally joined a new gym……and today was the first day !!!

When I went to pay the money…..which was yesterday…….there were a few cute boys…..and some of them were even gawking at me……..and that gave me hope…….

So with all the excitement that a small boy would have in a candy shop……..I was on my way…(the gym, literally, is a 2-minute walk to the gym from my place…)…..watching some new hot guys working out…….locker-room……steam……and the prospective possibilities of fun seemed endless…….or so I thought (I am an eternal optimist)…….

But at least on the first day…..my hopes started dwindling soon……

While I was climbing the stairs leading to the gym……there were these two Gujju girls……having their breakfast on the window-sill …… khakras….theplas……and chundoo……and these very girls turned out to be the receptionists !!!

What kind of gym is this where the receptionists sit at the entrance having a strong-smelling breakfast…….and personally…..I think not a very pleasant smell ???(sorry….you guys….who like this stuff)……

Inside there were more Gujju women…..and almost all the treadmills…….and the cycles……and *the thing with endless stairs*….were occupied by them…….

On seeing me at the counter…….one of the breakfast-eating girls……came up to me and *allocated* me a trainer……and as my luck would have it……a complete minger…….and obviously straight……sigh……..

So this guy makes me walk and later jog on the treadmill for 15 minutes…..despite me telling him that I do not have a lot of time everyday…..and 15 minutes on the treadmill would leave me no time for exercises…….

At the end of this cardio session…..he took me back at the reception……and since his time was up for the day…….”handed” me over to some other trainer…..who was cute-looking (in a raw-kindof way)……but with a pauch……(are they even allowed to have a paunch ???)

Now this trainer had his own ideas of making me look better and healthier……that I should do cardio and weight-training on alternate days……..which is ridiculous….as I almost have a flat tummy (remember…..regular masturbation !!!)……and am lean as well…….and I flatly refused…….so he finally took me for weight training……

And that’s how……sadly the first day was not *gay* enough…….

Cute Guy Count for the day
…..1 ½…….(½…as the other one was not hot-enough)……

Locker-room Count for the day……2….guys changing……

Hot Trainer Count for the day…….0…sadly…….

Let’s see what happens tomorrow……..any improvement….or my money is going down the drain ???

And BTW…….really glad that the gas pump strike was called off…….was really low on petrol……and had to drive a lot today……as a measure to conserve fuel…..I drove through the day without AC……in this sultry Mumbai heat…..and then too…..if the strike would’ve continued…..my car would’ve been out of fuel by tomorrow……..

Monday, September 18, 2006

IS IT ALWAYS PURE BUSINESS ???

This is a topic I do feel quite opinionated about…..or do I ???.......actually I am a bit confused…….

It’s about money coming in the way of relationships……..or should it???

This is something where most of the people will stick to their own personal opinions and they will personalize them as the situation warrants……

But is there any kind of generalization that one should follow…..any kind of ethics…..and if they waver from them……should they be considered perpetrators of crime ???……or acquitted respecting their own opinions ???………

We have a situation here where the person in question does some work for which he / she is entitled a fee…..and the transaction is purely business-like in nature…..but does not involve any kind of material costs involved…..like some kind of advice…….but should he / she be charging everyone……or “someone” can be exempt from it ???…..and who is to decide that “someone” ????... Is it his / her prerogative ???.....or it is ruled by some general etiquette ???

I totally understand if it involves something that will cost the seller as well…….and it is but fair that he / she has to pass on the cost to the buyer…….but when nothing is involved……..should he /she bring money into question ???……

And if he / she brings money in the said situation…….and the other “someone”……would not have brought money in the same situation had he / she been in his / her shoes……is the person who brings money wrong ???.......or it is just pure business that he /she is following ???…….

And is it a reason for relations to be strained ???…….or atleast a valid reason to disregard him / her ???……..

I really do not know……but what I do know is that you start seeing that person in a different light…….and your opinion about him / her does change……….and it does not change for better…….

Really don’t know whether you guys are getting what I am trying to say……and before the post is filled with nothing but question marks (???)……I think I ought to end……

(p.s. new gym from tomorrow…..hopefully….a lot of totties to ogle at…….will blog ‘bout it tom……..)

Sunday, September 17, 2006

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doggy style !!!

AND SO STARTS MY F*****G WEEKEND……

And so starts my fucking weekend……which is always on a working Saturday….

1. Taking care of really high-risk patients……who can die any time…..

2. Running around without food……

3. Doing thankless jobs…….

4. Living in the commercial capital with power-cuts……

5. Driving through a horrible traffic……

6. Car breaking down…….

7. Reaching home really really late……and after finishing work……not partying…..

8. Refusing money that was my due…..(I sometimes am so idiotic….)…..

9. And with not a single guy checking me out…..(I must be really dufus-looking today)…….

How has your weekend started???

MOORKHANCHA BAAZAAR…….

I am surrounded by a bunch of fools……who cannot acknowledge their stupidity…….

(so stooopid of me to expect fools acknowledging that they are stupid….)

Saturday, September 16, 2006

WHY CAN’T I BE A SHOP-KEEPER???



Why can’t I be a shop-keeper………

Life would be so very simple…….you go to your shop at around 10ish…..come home for lunch……rest for awhile……..go back……..and then come back home for dinner……

And the work involved is so very simple as well…..some one will come and ask……kitne kaa?? (How much is it for??)…..and that’s all you have to answer…….nothing else involved…….

I always have these thoughts while I go to one of my clinics (the same clinic where I get to see the hunky shop-keeper on my way….whom I want to bed)…..that has a lot of shops around it…….and that’s what I think after I do a particularly risky case that may involve a patient who may die……

How cool and uncomplicated a life shop-keepers have……..I envy them so very much !!!

And of other things……..this is how I feel right now……

I feel…..

1. Guilty……for having spent quite a bit in the morning…….without earning much…….(I am a daily wage earner)……..

2. Under-rated…..and that I am also not making full use of my potential…….

3. Idiotic…..for getting lost for the nth time…..on JVPD….despite knowing the area well and for years…….

p.s. Rahul Bose is SO VERY FAKE…...

Friday, September 15, 2006

A TANGENTIAL RELEASE…….

There is this guy…..who is still in his med school….and consults me for his medical problems pertaining to my specialty……..

He has a habit of asking a few queries everytime he meets me……and honestly has half-baked knowledge of the subject……..And consequently, the questions he comes out with are so very funny…..that it makes you think that he is utterly stupid……

Today….something similar happened….and while he asked me something…..I smiled to myself….and thought that he has to be really foolish to ask me that query…..

Also……it reminded me of my days in med school…..and when I used to go to some specialist consultant……even I used to ask similar questions and make a total fool of myself…….(must have provided some good amusement material to these consultants)…and I am sure my other med school friends were just the same…….

But then…..am I a joker to other elder, more experienced people around me???....will they be laughing at my expense???....

I really do not know…..but things change over a period of time……and the way you look at things change as well…..

Again….If you take the example of the same med student…….there is a palpable enthusiasm…….similar to the way I had…..there seems to be a constant urge to learn new things…….which is missing in me now………I am still peppy……but not the way I used to be at his age…..and when I see some senior people…..the way they are doing their work…….with a constant dull, boring expression…….I shedder to think……if that’s what is going to be of me when I grow up???

I see my reflection in him…..and now it’s my turn to be on the other side of the table…..

It’s amazing how we change over a period of time……

And we mould ourselves in the existing available moulds………

Everything seems to going in a full circle……Does everyone’s life go around the same circle more or less……or I can have a tangential release??? Really hard to say……..

Thursday, September 14, 2006

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help !!! .....horny tonite !!! .....

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

DISGUSTED…..BUT AM I DESERVING ENOUGH ???

I was just watching the television……and it was showing Yakub Memon’s interview…….

13 long, long years later…..the case came to trial…..and Yakub, Essa, Rubeena and Yusuf Memon were found guilty of the act of terrorism……THE 1993 MUMBAI BLASTS……

As a true Indian……and especially as a true Mumbaikar…….the 1993 blasts…..left me with a feeling of being cheated by *own* people……..and made me very, very angry and totally outraged……..

These bunch of people went all the way to Pakistan……got themselves trained……and then came back…..and carried out the most cowardly act of terrorism…….

And one of the main accused, Tiger Memon, is still at large…..and is believed to be in Pakistan…….

And in *Mera Bharat Mahan*….it takes full 13 years to bring the accused to trail and call them guilty…….and then too no punishment has been announced…….and for killing more than 250 people…….(a very, very conservative estimate)……and destroying property worth billions…..and implanting fear in thousands and thousands of residents………

How pathetic the legal system of the *Biggest Democracy* is…….and I am sure quite a few people wouldn’t be surprised if the guilty pronounced are not given a death penalty……..

But what about a regular citizen like me......am I deserving enough to criticize the judiciary???.... What have I done about it???..... Have I voiced my concern???..... Or have I got a better solution to deal with these criminals???...

If any of the guilty…….like for e.g.…….Yakub……were to suddenly leap out of the TV…..and stand in front of me…….what will I do???

I dunno what I would do…..but I know it for a fact that though I am very, very angry on them……I wouldn’t kill him…….

Is it because I am not tuned to kill someone or I am not that kind of person ???

Or is it because since neither me nor any one I know was directly affected……I am not angry enough to want to kill him ???

And if the second reason is true……..Again....am I deserving enough to be disgusted ???

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

HAIRCUT…….

I had a haircut today…….

And everytime I walk out of the hair-cutting salon…..I wish or rather hope that I suddenly start to look good as I walk out…….and well…..it almost never happens……

The place is run by barbers and not plastic surgeons and they have their own limitations………

They cannot make an ugly duckling look like a swan…..and that too for just Rs. 50……..And that is how much I pay for my haircut…….which essentially says that I go to a cheap place……and not one of those fancy places that charge you a bomb!!!

I have been going to my hair-cutting place for years…..and then too I think those people still do not know me…….and I do not know most of them……I do know some of them by their faces…..and I still do not have a regular barber……something that most of the people will have when you go to a hair-cutting shop for ages……

And the above says it all…..I am not too obsessed by my hair……

When they (my hair….on the top of my head) were long and thick……I did not look good ‘coz of them…….and now when they are not as long and thick as they used to be……I still do not look good……but I do trim them once a fortnight and do it as a ritual…….

But one thing I do not like is when some one tries to touch them…….I dunno why….but I don’t like anyone running their hands thru my hair…….

So today when I had my haircut…..I really thought that the guy did not do a good job…..and he cut them too short….and was sort of not happy about the entire thing……but did not say anything……gave him a big tip…..(I tip well….despite a bad job….)……and walked out……disappointed……

Anyway….and then saw this hot patient…..who thought I looked way younger than I actually am……so methinks……the barber must have done a good job…….kind of not unhappy with my new haircut now……..

p.s. almost ran over a fat guy while driving and at same time ogling at a slim hot guy in tight jeans!!!

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that is what i need for the day.........

Monday, September 11, 2006

SWEET TOOTH ???....BULIMIA ???.....


Consumed atleast 3 Ferraro Rochers and atleast 6 bourbon biscuits today…..(not that depressed I am)……

And then looked at myself in the mirror……do I look fat……does my face look bloated and ugly and oily……..

What is next for me??? Bulimia???

(Right now……watching these really dishy-looking Pakistani hockey players….wearing white shorts……and lo behold!!!.....one of them falls down and I can see his panties!!!

And one of them is called BUTT….his first name is Rehan)

Saturday, September 09, 2006

HUNGAMA HAI QUON BARPA….THODI SI JO PEE LEE HAI……


Thode si jo pee lee hai
……Why does this always happen????

Why don’t I ever create a Hungama at the Barpa????

Even I would like to get pissed drunk sometime and create a scene…….or let a dear friend of mine take me home…….or do naughty things to someone……or get caught by the police drunk……or find myself naked in a place totally anonymous to me and with someone…….or get I very bad hangover…(oh!!! That’s the only one that I have managed until now…)…….

Why do I have to be so normally boring…..and *straight*…….(read: susheel)…..

I do drink…..and I do love drinking as well…..but I have never got really really piss-drunk till now……..and I really don’t know why………despite liking the idea of getting drunk once in a while…….

I am 30……and started drinking as soon as I reached the legal age of 18….(actually I do not know what the legal age is in India for drinking…..I think it is 21…..but I have always thought that 18 makes you eligible to do anything and everything…..dunno why…..)……

Now I thought of this drinking thing while I was sitting idle tonight……and I suddenly thought of *that* Saturday night with *Lost Opportunity No. 3*…….it was really late and we were at my place……we had come back from a pub……had been drinking…..and were talking of masturbation,,, prostatic massage,,, et al..….but not totally drunk to lose our senses…….and I was telling him……how I would really like to have a wild night out and get so drunk that I do not know what I am doing and let the other person do *anything* that person wanted to do on me (read: shag)……and he said…..we should really do it (drinking session) some day…..but that day of rather night never came….sigh…….

And today is Saturday night again……I, as usual, am working late on Saturday…..had a sad day……and sadly enough still waiting for that night when I will get piss-drunk and let *anyone* do *anything* to me…………



my fave........

Friday, September 08, 2006

LOW......



Have been pretty low on self-esteem lately…..dunno why…….professionally not bad…….personally bad……

But I still think that I deserve much more……..than what I have been getting….and probably that is the reason why there is a build up of general level of frustration……

Sadly….music….cute boys on the street…gay porn…..has done nothing for me……

Maybe some meditation will…….

Thursday, September 07, 2006

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hey JT.....you look hot !!!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

GANAPATI BAPPA MORYA……



PUDHACHYA VARSHI LAVKAR YAA……

Today marked the end of the 10-day long Ganesh festival…..which Mumbai as always celebrates with a lot of pomp and show…..the festivities will end and the people will go back to their regular dull routine…..on the brighter side for many people…….who do not drink alcohol and eat non-vegetarian food……they will be doing so right after the visarjan……….

Anyway……I am not particularly a fan of Ganesh Utsav…..and haven’t visited a single *Sarvajanik Ganesh Mandal* this year…..and did not miss it as well……

But what I did not miss was my walk to and on Juhu beach today……and it was great fun…..

I was not there for the last three years…..and when you miss something….only then you realize how joyous it was…….and this year I did go to the beach….for the visarjan….and sadly….again….all by myself…….

It is amazing how people enjoy themselves……and even thogh you are on your own……you tend to enjoy as well…..kind of therapeutic too……there were so many people around…..and moving amongst the crowd reminded me of driving amongst the snail-paced traffic that I encounter everyday…..except that this is wonderful…..and I am not driving to work….

The crowds were crazy……and they were really really enjoying themselves……people were shouting….and making noise……and children were wearing funny masks and had toys with them……and some people were wearing illuminated colored wristbands…….it was a COOL sight……so noisy……(just like the Carter Road CCD…..)….. and yes there was a plethora of hot guys as well (again, just like the Carter Road CCD…..)……..

There were stalls on the side of the roads…..some throwing rose petals on the people…….some distributing Vada Pav…..some distributing Sherbet…….some distributing samosas……some giving some kind of sweets……and all free of cost……but with the cost of standing in a queue…..what do you get nowadays without a queue !!!

Great fun !!!

Hopefully will have someone with me to enjoy the festivities next year……..Inshallah…..

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

MARGINALZATION AMONGST THE MARGINALIZED…….



Though I am not an active member of the group….I am a part of a wonderful group called *Gaybombay* (GB)…….

*Gaybombay* is something that a city like Bombay needs and the country needs as well essentially……it is a group of people….all gay……who come together……quite often….for discussions,,,,debates,,,,film-screenings,,,,parties and even picnics……

The organizers are great and spare no efforts to get the events going smoothly and organize new ones……

Since I am still closeted….I do not go to any of these events……but I am on the mailing-list and I do read the mails…..and each one of them……

So what prompted me to write this post was this mail from a guy….who asked if there were any Muslims or Christians in the group……

It may be a very benign question and asked just for general knowledge and probably for the heck of it…….and probably he did not mean anything in particular…….but what a stupid question to ask…….

And the first reaction that I had was that this guy is very prejudiced against anyone but the Hindus…….and that’s what most of the people on the mailing list must have thought and he did receive a lot of flak for it as well…..a well-deserved one!!!

Now anyone living in a multi-religious, secular country like India sees all kinds of people every-where…..from all religions and faiths and all castes and communities…..and GB is no different…..it is bound to have Muslims and Christians……and it is so obvious from the names of some of the active members from the mailing list…….

What was he thinking???…..Is he actually prejudiced???.....Does he think that Muslims and Christians are all straight ???…….

I think….posing such a question….or even thinking about it something akin to marginalization of people amongst a community that is already marginalized……by the society…….

Gay community in India is essentially not recognized by the society or any kind of political organization…..here under *Section 377*….Homosexuality is still a crime…we as Indian citizens are all criminals……there is nothing like *zero-discrimination* or *equal-opportunities* policy…and thus this becomes a minor under-privileged group……

As a part of this group….we must make a conscious…..if not an unconscious effort……to think liberally…..

And questions like these (asking if there are Muslims or Christians in the group) are wrong……(can’t say politically incorrect as in India *doing gay* is politically and legally incorrect..)…..

Unfortunately reading some of the post it does feel like we have some people in the group who not only are stupid but also think narrow…… But I think…..like we have different kind of people in a large, joint family…..and we embrace each one of them with all their inadequacies……so also should we in this big, happy, sometimes freaky GB family !!!

Anyway....

Happy Birthday GB

Monday, September 04, 2006

BODY WORKS……PUBERTY…….SEXUAL INNOCENCE…..


Right now I am watching a program on the Discovery Channel called *Body Works*…..it is about puberty and all the changes that take place while growing up and while watching the program all the memories about my puberty came back to me……

It is such a confusing period of your life…..

As far as my puberty was concerned….it was a wee bit sooner than the rest of the boys around me…..and I remember becoming taller than most of the boys in my class…..

I was tall anyway….than most of them….so that was not much of a problem…..

But then we had short pants in the school that time in seventh grade….. I was only 12 years old ….and my legs suddenly became very very hairy ……and it was so very embarrassing…….

There was only one other boy in my class who had such hairy legs…..and I hated him…..he was a school bully……but he was hairy as well…..and then he told me that he had hair all over (which was much later)…..in his armpits,,,pubes,,,asshole and of course the facial hair which was for all to see….and I am still grateful to him for telling me that….as I felt that I am not the only freak!!!

Of course it was not just him who told me all those things……and I should not be giving him credit for all the information……the credit goes to *The World Book Encyclopedia*….as I was a voracious reader….and the moment I knew that this kind of thing is called *puberty*…..I got all the information from the encyclopedia……I also got a few other books from the library and read them……

So……geeky as I was….I was kind of well informed about the stuff……..

The most embarrassing thing was the voice change…..and the rest of the people around spared no effort in letting me know how different my voice was and how I was growing up…….some of my peers even laughed at me for that……

So now the embarrassment list included……facial hair,,,,hairy legs and a freaky,,,, cracky voice…..and then it was a lot of sweat…with my sweat glands working full-time….so the stink from those as well….especially after I played a game of volley-ball…..

“In the front” it was a different story……I was getting hard-ons…like…..all the time…..the first one that I got….which I distinctly remember…’coz……it was when a friend of mine of the same age as I was and I….got hold of a topless picture of Samantha Fox …(yep….Sam Fox…..with those large boobs staring at you incessantly…)……I got an instant hard-on…..and so did he…..and we did tell each other….how our pee-wees suddenly grew…(no kidding)….we were too young to know the non-innocent aspect to it……

And *a sexually confused me* had hard-ons looking at hot men as well as hot women…..big boobs in women and tight crotches in men especially……..

But I never questioned myself….why was I attracted to both men as well as women…..for me it was just something that God had given to treat my eyes with….and I took it that way…..

One more thing that I distinctly remember…..was my first wet dream…….I suddenly woke up with a hard dick and before I could know…….it spurted some really thick white fluid with great force…..and stained my underpants……the stains became thick and hard in the morning and I did have the good-brains to wash them and then put them in the washing machine…….

I dunno what gave me this instinctive knowledge to stay in the society and save myself from all the numerous embarrassing situations that the puberty presents to us and still be happy…..and satisfied……

Puberty….ahh….so sexual….yet so innocent……..

And now that I look back at it retrospectively……I think I did good….and did enjoy all the moments then…..gawking at sexy guys and gals…….jerking-off……watching porn…..et al……and effectively FEELING GOOD!!!

Saturday, September 02, 2006

PARTNERS IN CRIME ???

As I was reading the newspaper today……I came across this news regarding someone being arrested for *abetment of suicide*…..

These kind of news are very common in India…..’coz in women who commit suicide (dowry and related issues)…….the in-laws may be arrested as per law…..and charged with *abetment of suicide*……..

Now this post is neither about dowry and related crimes nor about the causes of suicide nor about suicide per se....it is only about *abetment of suicide*.....

What is this *abetment of suicide*????

I believe that committing suicide is a crime…..and one should not be doing so…….and while some argue that it is the life of that individual person…..and he / she should be allowed to do whatsoever he / she wishes…..the question is open for debate as far as I am concerned……but whatever said and done…..most of the people will agree that suicide is an act of cowardice…….

If a person for whichever reason chooses to kill himself / herself……why should anyone else be held responsible for it???

Under no circumstances should a person give up living…..and if the person does so…..by his / her own wishes…..the person should be solely responsible for it and no one else……

Why held some one else responsible for something that they have not done…….they may be one of the reasons due to which the person took this drastic step……but to kill oneself…..is not the option…….there may not be lot of other options….but still…..suicide can never be considered as the last or the only option…….it may be the easy option out……and the coward-of-a-person chose it….

A person should have a moral duty to report any other person who is about to kill himself / herself to the concerned authorities like the police and take every possible step to prevent it from happening……..and I do agree if he / she fails in this duty……. It should be punishable………

I may tell a person I do not like to go and kill himself….and if he does…..does it mean I have abetted to the crime??? Most certainly not!!!

So are these “Partners in Crime” actually partners or they should be relinquished of their partnerships???

......................

HAIRY.......



OR SMOOTH......

Friday, September 01, 2006

THE OFFICE

*The Office*……the American version of the original BBC series…..sucks big time……

The original one is so much better…..Ricky Gervais ROCKS!!!