JEALOUS.....

Jealous……Yeah, the hell I am…..

And why wouldn’t I be ???….There is this guy who lives a superb life….right under my nose…..something like Homer Simpson...a good-for-nothin'-fella with everything you would wish for...

He is really, really stupid…..very, very selfish….has so-so credentials…does an extremely ordinary job…..yet, seems to have everything that I do not…..a partner (girlfriend…yeah, he’s straight)..a girlfriend who looks good, is sweet and someone with whom he can have sex with every single f**k**g day...has a decent life-style...has a stable job...goes to parties and vacations on a regular basis….and as a whole a good,,,well-set,,,settled life-style that I can only dream of at this stage…..and he is younger than me....

So what is it that he has and I do not ???….That is the question that always comes in my mind everytime I see him…..

I am better person than he is….more kind…more understanding…more altruistic…..more empathetic….and I do think more of other people…..

I am more intelligent than he is….much,,much more educated…and most importantly, much more hard-working and sincere…..

So what is it that makes him have a way better life than I do ???…..

I really don’t know…..everytime I try to rationalize it or try to find an answer, I find none…..










p.s. and while I am publishing this post.....Mr Homer is off partying at some nice trendy nightclub downtown !!!