MOJO.........

Have I lost my Mojo…..

So many things to write…but do not feel motivated enough to type and publish…..

I wish I could meet someone…..and I can absolutely have a verbal diarrhea….instead of being constipated…………

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JEALOUS.....

Jealous……Yeah, the hell I am…..

And why wouldn’t I be ???….There is this guy who lives a superb life….right under my nose…..something like Homer Simpson...a good-for-nothin'-fella with everything you would wish for...

He is really, really stupid…..very, very selfish….has so-so credentials…does an extremely ordinary job…..yet, seems to have everything that I do not…..a partner (girlfriend…yeah, he’s straight)..a girlfriend who looks good, is sweet and someone with whom he can have sex with every single f**k**g day...has a decent life-style...has a stable job...goes to parties and vacations on a regular basis….and as a whole a good,,,well-set,,,settled life-style that I can only dream of at this stage…..and he is younger than me....

So what is it that he has and I do not ???….That is the question that always comes in my mind everytime I see him…..

I am better person than he is….more kind…more understanding…more altruistic…..more empathetic….and I do think more of other people…..

I am more intelligent than he is….much,,much more educated…and most importantly, much more hard-working and sincere…..

So what is it that makes him have a way better life than I do ???…..

I really don’t know…..everytime I try to rationalize it or try to find an answer, I find none…..










p.s. and while I am publishing this post.....Mr Homer is off partying at some nice trendy nightclub downtown !!!

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I'M BACK......

Hey guys….I’m back…..bigger (or atleast older)….better (more mores than less…)…and as far as the blog goes….more raunchier…..

So why did I suddenly go ???...and where the hell did I go ???…..

These may not interest you much….but for those of you who have slightest of curiosity…..do go on reading….and as for the rest my next post will have some hot butt pics to drool on and you can skip this one…..

Well…I am not going to tell you everything....but this is what happened…..I was doing something good…earning good money and was overall alright with the way things had been…..but there was something eating me up all the time…..there was something I really, really wanted to do for a really, really long time for myself and one fine day I decided to do it…..

It was going to be a long, arduous journey……something which will require my full attention…..and something for which I have to be totally focused…….it also meant leaving my profession….and bringing my earnings to an absolute zero…..but I wanted to do it and that was more important than anything else....SO I DECIDED TO DO IT !

And till the time I walk substantial distance, it was going to be…..no blog….no dates….no gym….no movies…no TV…no parties…..and the list goes on and on and on…..and on !!! and even though I am not totally there,,,, I am almost there and now I think the I can give some of my time to blogging and internet and internet porn (not that I was away from porn any time….that would’ve made my life unsustainable, wouldn’t it???)…..

There were so many things that happened in this period that I wanted to share…..but did not…..like the time that I was watching this movie, *RGV ki Aag* when one of the thugs says *top ya bottom kya farak padta hai*……how more gay can RGV be ??? or the time when this cute,,,hot barber asked me if I want *a facial*…..with a bulge in his pants….and a twinkle in his eye ???…..

I would be lying if I say that I did not have a tough time…..there were times when I felt absolutely miserable….with no one to talk to - blog-mates or otherwise….or there were times…..when I wanted to buy something……but did not...there were times when I wanted to go out for a party…..but did not….there were times when I wanted to watch a new good movie…but did not….there were times when I wanted to dine out at a nice restautant…..but did not…….

Not that they have been completely reversed…..but still partially so…..and it is just a matter of time when they will be long gone…..restarting to blog is one of the first things of the long list that I had stopped doing….and I am sure the rest will follow soon…..wish me luck